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Volume 7 no 4

It's a Blissful Life
Lost in my Illusions
To me Buddhism was one of those mysterious eastern religions where the monks would sit around all day meditating, and as far as I was concerned they were welcome to it. Who in their right minds would want to spend their time in such a pursuit? Not me, that is for sure.

However, about two and a half years ago quite by accident I came into contact with this mysterious eastern religion through my work. I was contracted to pressure clean the brick wall of a Buddhist Mission that had just been built. I don’t know why, but I became fascinated with this building and would visit it quite often in the after hours when I thought no one else would be there. I seemed to be drawn to it like a pin to a magnet. It was here that I was introduced to Jen Chen Buddhism.

Now, I no longer feel fascinated as challenged, because my so called knowledge, thoughts, concepts, ideology and all the rest of it are being put to the test. After more than two years, I thought I had learned a lot about the spiritual stuff, but I can see now that the teachings of Venerable Master Shen-Kai are only just beginning to awaken my mind.

I have taken notice of my mind which is always grasping and never satisfied, always seeking but never finding, always busy looking for that elusive something that will bring happiness. It seems such a thankless task that will never be completed. If I could liken the distractive mind to a flea and the pure awareness of our Buddha Nature to an elephant, then my mind is like a flea that has taken charge of the elephant. And I had put all my trust and faith in the flea while I ignore the elephant that would carry me through this life with peace and joy.

Our trials and tribulations in life, they are no more than illusions that hold us back from what we truly are. For me it seems that I had let life's illusion cloud my vision, and of course, I allowed that distortion to become my reality. If I were to be faithful to them, then I will walk in darkness. On the other hand, our Buddha Nature is what we really are, always have been and always will be. If I am faithful to my Buddha Nature, then I will always walk in the light. I trust that with my own sincere effort and guidance from my Venerable teacher, I will be able to do away with the small mind that binds me and walk on in the light of our Buddha Nature. I now have a new understanding of the monks whom I used to ridicule.

What I learned about karma, and cause and effect stop me in my tracks as I begin to understand that I am really in charge of every aspect of my life. I have, since, given up smoking and drinking, and I am a lot more tolerant with people than I used to be. My mind is still not keen on meditation, but I am working on it.

I am fortunate and thankful to have encountered Jen Chen Buddhism in Western Australia. I am grateful to the Venerable teacher for helping me to find my path in life, and I will always be deeply grateful to Venerable Master Shen-Kai whose teachings made me aware of my Buddha Nature, and whose footsteps I will truly follow lifetime after lifetime.


Copyright 2002.Jen Chen Buddhism Centre